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"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him,
and who have been called according to His purpose."
Romans 8:28
I've decided to update this page as i've learned not only one lesson,
but actually more than one while in the process of understanding
what I was to get out of an experience. We need to always pay
attention to what's going on in life around us and to continue those
that truly work and make us happy ...
and to change the ones that aren't working for us and which need
changing, especially if they're the important things in life.
I like to think i've been a smart and good man. And I was, I am ...
but i've made some changes for the right reasons. Wise choices.
In the course of making these changes i've come to realize that i'm now
thinking clearer, becoming more efficient, having more compassion
and empathy, getting and remembering my priorities MUCH better,
and although I can go on and on, it boils down to creating a simple
yet happier life. My goal in life since I was a kid.
It's funny in a sense. I use to struggle to just get one thing done
on any given day. It was actually a goal of mine at one time.
On good days i'd increase it to two, or three.
That was about the best it got. Today, I get exhausted trying to get
all the things done on my to-do list. I'm talking over 10 things or more.
I'm also a perfectionist to an extent. My oldest son has that trait ...
maybe some of the others too, to a point. He excells at most things he
puts his energy in. Just like me. It makes me very proud, but even if he
didn't do so well i'd be proud of him as I know he gives it his all.
None of us are perfect, or even excel on some given tasks. All my children
have the trait of doing their best and i'm proud of them all. That's what's
the most important. Our best will vary from day to day and all we can
do is our best, on any given day. My kids make great choices on where
their energy goes and keeps their priorities in order. Yes, we all fail on
a bad day making a poor choice, but the difference is to recognize it
and change the game. By doing that ...
life stays simple and we have a happier life
JUST LIKE WHAT WAS MEANT TO BE!!.
Which brings me to my point. I've always done my best. At everything.
Every day. Looking back over my life ,my best has sure varied.
I use to have all my sh%t together and things went very good for
many years. I had an experience that knocked the wind out of me,
then another and another. I found out I wasn't infallible.
I literally got taken down to my knees and was literally crawling in the rut
I found myself in. It was a dark, lonely and poor path.
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get out of that rut. I'm talking years ...
not days or weeks. The only thing that gave me any happiness was either
the herd of horses I owned and took care of, or the hope of seeing
one of my children or a family member. That was about all that would
start lifting me out of that rut. Anyhow, there came a time which i've
come to realize wasn't my timing ... but somebody elses. No matter
how hard I tried to better things I failed. And failed.
Suddenly one day I started noticing an unexplained energy to focus
and get my priorities back in order. Things went slow ... but I got it ...
baby steps. (go down to a starred SOCKSHARE selection if you want to watch a movie)
One day at a time. In a sense I knew I was on a good path and started
crawling up out of that hole. I learned to shake off the negative and
focus on the positive. I learned to not take things personally and to
understand others have problems but I can't let their problems be mine.
I realized I had to focus more on me to be a better person and then
i'd be a better person for those I cared about. It's all pretty simple
when you think about it, but when you're in a rut
it's hard to focus on your real priorities.
As things kept getting better and better in my life, I started focusing
again. I started dreaming again and having hope. I started planning
again, something I gave up on as hurdles always seemed too high.
I didn't deal with those hurdles well and took an easier path. It wasn't
the best path ... it was the easy one. I'd have a feeling of functioning
in society but it was below par. It was existing. It was nothing like what
i'd been raised to do. It was nothing like how I raised my family until
that experience that unfortunately changed my life.
Thank God it wasn't forever ... it was a long time,
but i'm still breathing and i'm once again back on a good path. *whew*
OK, i'm rambling but I think you get the point.
I've been accused of writing the longest email
and I don't want to better that. *HAHA*
Days of being a perfectionist are over. I have my priorities in
good order and that's what matters to me.
I'm happy again and have no intention on falling off this path.
I'm gonna keep pedaling and let God do the steering.
He does in fact know secrets on how to make a better life and
I get it. Which brings me down to my awakening.
I learned one of the biggest and most important things in life
is to simply let go, and let God do the timing and direction I go.
I do it in the mountains on horseback, but I wasn't practicing it
on a day to day basis in all my actions.. I was a good person,
had good intentions, helped alot of people but i wasn't helping
those who meant the most to me.
I GET IT NOW ...
He'll stick by me ... He'll direct me in the right direction ...
He'll help me do the right things to simplify my life and
stay focused on what's important ... and yes ... get rid of the past.
Those heavy burdens i've been carrying all alone. Those demons,
He took them away and gave me life again.
He showed me how to focus and accomplish what I wanted to
focus on, He showed His love for me and started showing me grace
and reminded me His son died on the cross for my sins.
He showed me how to live again, with what He's blessed me with ...
and to realize there's a good path, maybe not the easy path,
and that there is in fact a reason for everything,
we just don't always know why.
They're meant to happen in His time, and His way.
Yes, i've finally learned how to Let Go, Let God
and to Trust Him and have Faith in Him that he won't steer me wrong.
He's always had a good path for me, but gave me free will
and it was always a choice. I've now chose to live life His way.
He's here to stay, He's not going to leave me.
*smlling*
Is that your final answer? ...
"Be strong and COURAGEOUS
Do not be terrified
do not be discouraged
for the Lord your God will be with you
Whereever you go"
Joshua 1:9 *mumbling it must be named after my little buddy*
"A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy. "It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.
"One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, self-doubt, and ego to name a few.
"The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope,
serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.
"This same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"
The old chief simply replied,
~April~
But those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.
they shall mount up with wings as Eagles.
~Isaiah 40:31~
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I've decided to update this page as i've learned not only one lesson, but actually more than one while in the process of understanding what I was to get out of an experience. We need to always pay attention to what's going on in life around us and to continue those that truly work and make us happy ... and to change the ones that aren't working for us and which need changing, especially if they're the important things in life. I like to think i've been a smart and good man. And I was, I am ... but i've made some changes for the right reasons. Wise choices. In the course of making these changes i've come to realize that i'm now thinking clearer, becoming more efficient, having more compassion and empathy, getting and remembering my priorities MUCH better, and although I can go on and on, it boils down to creating a simple yet happier life. My goal in life since I was a kid. It's funny in a sense. I use to struggle to just get one thing done on any given day. It was actually a goal of mine at one time. On good days i'd increase it to two, or three. That was about the best it got. Today, I get exhausted trying to get all the things done on my to-do list. I'm talking over 10 things or more. I'm also a perfectionist to an extent. My oldest son has that trait ... maybe some of the others too, to a point. He excells at most things he puts his energy in. Just like me. It makes me very proud, but even if he didn't do so well i'd be proud of him as I know he gives it his all. None of us are perfect, or even excel on some given tasks. All my children have the trait of doing their best and i'm proud of them all. That's what's the most important. Our best will vary from day to day and all we can do is our best, on any given day. My kids make great choices on where their energy goes and keeps their priorities in order. Yes, we all fail on a bad day making a poor choice, but the difference is to recognize it and change the game. By doing that ... life stays simple and we have a happier life JUST LIKE WHAT WAS MEANT TO BE!!. Which brings me to my point. I've always done my best. At everything. Every day. Looking back over my life ,my best has sure varied. I use to have all my sh%t together and things went very good for many years. I had an experience that knocked the wind out of me, then another and another. I found out I wasn't infallible. I literally got taken down to my knees and was literally crawling in the rut I found myself in. It was a dark, lonely and poor path. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get out of that rut. I'm talking years ... not days or weeks. The only thing that gave me any happiness was either the herd of horses I owned and took care of, or the hope of seeing one of my children or a family member. That was about all that would start lifting me out of that rut. Anyhow, there came a time which i've come to realize wasn't my timing ... but somebody elses. No matter how hard I tried to better things I failed. And failed. Suddenly one day I started noticing an unexplained energy to focus and get my priorities back in order. Things went slow ... but I got it ... baby steps. (go down to a starred SOCKSHARE selection if you want to watch a movie) One day at a time. In a sense I knew I was on a good path and started crawling up out of that hole. I learned to shake off the negative and focus on the positive. I learned to not take things personally and to understand others have problems but I can't let their problems be mine. I realized I had to focus more on me to be a better person and then i'd be a better person for those I cared about. It's all pretty simple when you think about it, but when you're in a rut it's hard to focus on your real priorities. As things kept getting better and better in my life, I started focusing again. I started dreaming again and having hope. I started planning again, something I gave up on as hurdles always seemed too high. I didn't deal with those hurdles well and took an easier path. It wasn't the best path ... it was the easy one. I'd have a feeling of functioning in society but it was below par. It was existing. It was nothing like what i'd been raised to do. It was nothing like how I raised my family until that experience that unfortunately changed my life. Thank God it wasn't forever ... it was a long time, but i'm still breathing and i'm once again back on a good path. *whew* OK, i'm rambling but I think you get the point. I've been accused of writing the longest email and I don't want to better that. *HAHA* Days of being a perfectionist are over. I have my priorities in good order and that's what matters to me. I'm happy again and have no intention on falling off this path. I'm gonna keep pedaling and let God do the steering. He does in fact know secrets on how to make a better life and I get it. Which brings me down to my awakening. I learned one of the biggest and most important things in life is to simply let go, and let God do the timing and direction I go. I do it in the mountains on horseback, but I wasn't practicing it on a day to day basis in all my actions.. I was a good person, had good intentions, helped alot of people but i wasn't helping those who meant the most to me. I GET IT NOW ... He'll stick by me ... He'll direct me in the right direction ... He'll help me do the right things to simplify my life and stay focused on what's important ... and yes ... get rid of the past. Those heavy burdens i've been carrying all alone. Those demons, He took them away and gave me life again. He showed me how to focus and accomplish what I wanted to focus on, He showed His love for me and started showing me grace and reminded me His son died on the cross for my sins. He showed me how to live again, with what He's blessed me with ... and to realize there's a good path, maybe not the easy path, and that there is in fact a reason for everything, we just don't always know why. They're meant to happen in His time, and His way. Yes, i've finally learned how to Let Go, Let God and to Trust Him and have Faith in Him that he won't steer me wrong. He's always had a good path for me, but gave me free will and it was always a choice. I've now chose to live life His way. He's here to stay, He's not going to leave me. *smlling*
Is that your final answer? ... "Be strong and COURAGEOUS Do not be terrified do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you Whereever you go" Joshua 1:9 *mumbling it must be named after my little buddy*
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